the devil and god are raging inside me

got home from florida around 10:30. heated some mac + cheese and watched 'the office' before finding a moive on the We network-- 'girl, interrupted.' it was good and i am at that particular level of tiredness where i know that i will faaalllllll fast asleep in about a minute. when i am this tired, i feel that i somehow gain a high level of clarity, however inexplicable that may be. winona ryder is in that movie and she writes a lot, especially towards the end. lots of lead (er graphite) was spilled on the road to becoming herself once more.

i like happy endings.

i got mail while i was away. a new, larger memory card for germany + prague and an album, a brand new album. by that, i mean an album by the band 'brand new' that, coincidentally, is not brand new but some kind of promo cd i bought online at a reduced rate. it is called 'the devil and god are raging inside me.' i am waiting to listen to it until i have some daylight, a fresh shower and some socks on. i think it will highlight the duality of being human, of the battle within us between sins and sainthood.

nothing we say will ever mean anything unless it meant something when we said it. brand new has a song on their sophomore release in which the lyrics read 'everyone who lives will someday die and die alone.' death is something we will all experience and cannot share with one another, just as we cannot compare levels of emotion.

i didn't make new year's resolutions when the clock counted down (actually, for me it was some band guy and i don't think he was very accurate). i have some now.

resolutions for 2007:
1. be more generous
2. deleted this one
3. take more pictures
4. take no experiences, opportunities or people for granted

happy new year. remember that life is just four letters combined in a particular way that have the potential to mean more than words can ever say.

~matt h.